9.22.2012

NYC anxiety

For the past 9 months, Saturdays have been stressful.
I would have a full blown anxiety attack.
I was frustrated, would nag at myself and Derek, and nothing was ever accomplished because of it.

But before I delve into this topic, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. Your feedback influenced me more than you know! I felt so much love and have realized more deeply that we are not alone in our marriage struggles. So glad we are all in this together going through similar experiences. The advice shared from many of you was wonderful! I'm so excited to apply it in my own marriage. Thank you thank you thank you.

Anyways, living in the city is so fun, but I have felt a lot of pressure to always be out doing touristy things. 
Derek on the other is always pretty satisfied with life. He doesn't allow himself to feel pressure from anyone or anything hardly ever. We're so opposite.

BUT

I think we're starting to meet more in the middle. I'm becoming OK with relaxing Saturdays. I don't feel so rushed to get out. I hung around the apartment until 3:00 today and didn't feel any anxiety even for a second. It was WONDERFUL. Derek was actually the one saying we should go do something like a museum before dinner and a movie. Waaaa?! It made me so happy. We didn't end up going cause I procrastinated my run way too long, but it was still a good night.

A simple life is OK.

Isn't he SO handsome?

Our evening consisted of a walk along the river, a tram ride, sushi for dinner, and the Obama 2016 movie. I give it 3/5 stars. We were by far the youngest people in the theatre. I loved it. The laughing of the elderly was so great. Made me miss all of our grandparents. 

I'll leave you with a little snippet of our taxi ride home last night. I promise you our driver didn't stop talking the whole 20 minute ride. Don't worry, the video is only 40 seconds long. I said maybe 5 words the whole ride. And his laugh. There was no chance of us falling asleep back there. Especially with all his talk of McRomney. No joke. He seriously thinks his name is McRomney and told us all about how he doesn't trust that man with the nuclear codes. It was entertaining to say the least.

Enjoy :) And sorry it's a little quiet. I was trying to hide my phone.

video

7 comments:

  1. So Amanda, I've been meaning to comment for awhile now...but Owen loves whatever I'm doing and likes to be a part of it. :)
    I really love how you are able to express your thoughts and feelings, your joys and struggles, and your hopes and dreams. I can relate with a lot of your most recent posts.
    I am the same way when it comes to Saturdays, and Brian sounds a lot like Derek. But you're right, on that note and on marriage in general, when we meet in the middle - truly seek out the happiness of our spouse - life is a joyful compilation of day to day moments. Because really, the joy is in the little things that we say or do or think of the other.
    I love you Amanda!

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    1. Love this. Thanks for sharing! Still dying to meet little Owen. Love you!

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  2. Hi beautiful Amanda -

    I just read this and thought of you. http://www.foxnews.com/health/2012/09/21/women-with-severe-endometriosis-may-be-more-attractive/?intcmp=obnetwork

    Love you! Aunt Flora

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    1. You totally made my day!! This is so great and funny. I love it. I might just have to share this with the blog. You're so awesome. Love you tons!

      xoxo
      Amanda

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  3. That video is awesome! At times I wish I had a laugh like that...

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    1. The thing is...you do! Your laugh is so awesome and contagious.

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  4. When in New York, Eh? haha
    Love this girl.

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