Where'd my motivation run off to?

So like way back when (like 3 months ago) I was superwoman. I decided to run a half marathon, trained like a mad woman, ate crazy healthy, was lookin' good, feelin' good, and was so proud of myself. I thought, this is it for sure. This is the beginning of my healthy life and there's no end to it. Well about a month into training, we went to Utah. I ran a couple of times in Utah and about died because of the elevation, I ate crap (cafe rio, hires big h, kfc, pantry packed with treats, etc) and I thought I'd get right back to where I left off. 

3 months later here I sit...

Totally untrained, eating whatever the heck I feel like, and wondering why a big strong wave of motivation hasn't washed over me like it usually does every month or so.

Derek and I have talked a lot recently about motivation. Our dear Zen Habits friend talks about motivation. Motivation comes and goes for us all. So how do we push through the times we don't feel so motivated? Well he reminds us that these times don't usually last long if we just continue on through them and keep up our good habits. But it's SO HARD! 

The greatest advice I've ever heard was, "If you need to do something, do it!" Don't wait. Just do it. I think about this all the time. Why is it so hard to shut the computer, roll out of bed, put down my book, and go run? I just need to stop putting it off and do it. 

So I have my new training schedule printed off, and tomorrow is my start. I'm nervous since I'm still not sure where my motivation has run off to (I feel so extremely unmotivated), but I'm going to "Just do it". I'm going to run those few miles, I'm going to make that salad instead of just eating cereal and cinnamon coffee bread for the convenience . I'm going to apply for that job instead of distracting myself with a book, the Olympics, or Facebook.

My last question. Why is it when I finally decide to do a half marathon it seems like everyone and their dog decide to do one too? It makes my goal to run one seem so much less significant! I guess I need to find some more loser friends instead of like really cool motivated ones. Jk, but seriously. My friends are awesome.

And speaking of awesome, TODAY WAS AWESOME. Derek and I walked our little hearts out until late into the night. I love being out and about with my best friend. We have way too much fun when we are together. After a stressful and long summer, it was nice to not think about anything but each other. We visited friends, ventured to Queens, Central Park, and Lincoln Center. We talked each others ears off, laughed our little hearts out, and felt like a young newlywed couple again. Sometimes when life gets busy you need some of that. I even get $100 for following through with a dare to Sing Old MacDonald at the top of my lungs in the middle of the city. He should have learned by now that I WILL follow through with dares. YOLO. But really, $100 doesn't mean much because it's my money too, and I'd rather save it than spend it. Oo maybe I'll trade it for a back massage or something.

On our way to church. And don't ask how you take candid pictures of yourself but I swear to you that at least one of these is candid. 

This is for real. I am so spoiled! I had just painted my fingernails when I decided I wanted to paint my toenails too. But I couldn't take my nail polish off my toes without and chance of ruining my fingernails. I had a serious dilemma on my hands. Serious enough to ask Derek to take it off. He was the sweetest. "What has happened to my manhood? I'm doing my wife's toenails, while watching women's basketball(olympics), and spent last month watching the bachelorette?!" HILARIOUS. I was dying.

This is what the sky looked like last night. Times Square lighting up the night sky. Drooling over this site.